Thursday, December 15, 2005


I ask why do people have to be Jealous of other people spending time with people and them feeling left out we they make no attempt to join in? This is my question delima it's driving me crazy. I feel I can not give anymore of myself. If I do then I lose my ownself. I don't want to lose myself again. I like me, I like the things I do. I like my life right now. I like who I share my life with. Jealousy has no room in my life. It messes with your head, your feelings, there is no room for such things. Life is short one should enjoy it well. How do I deal with such things. I ask you. UGH....

Next delima I am going to CKC in March in Portland with my friend Shannon. We became exzasperated last night in deciding what classes we should take. It is a vendors fair/class taking event. How many classes is to much? How much time is to much looking at new items to buy? What is not enough time? When does burn out start? Overwhelmed? How much sleep? We want to get the most of the event. We sign up for classes this afternoon. Oh my I hope we call it right. So many classes which ones should we take. OH well who knows.

U-haul is very very slow right now. yeah so I need to work upstairs in the other job I have. Get ready for tax season. That job does drive me crazy though.

Went to a friend Haley's house last night for card time. We had a wonderful time it was awesome. It alway's is. Such fun having fun with friends being silly, talking silly, laughing it is wonderful. If it happened more often then I would probably really be in trouble with the first thing I mentioned in this entry.

Well, that's my entry for this morning. I would surely love to go back to sleep right now.

Love to all, Below is a little something to think about Enjoy....

(written after she found out she was dying from cancer.)

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner."

There would have been more "I love you's." More "I'm sorry's."

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it. Live it and never give it back.

Stop sweating the small stuff.

Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally.

I hope you all have a blessed day


Jessica's Blog said...

It's Okay Ma! Things will be all rite! I like what Erma has to say.

Anonymous said...

callie ann i get the hint. love jake